Monday, June 21, 2010

This One's for the Girls

I want to take this time and truly thank all of the utterly fabulous lady friends I have in my life.

Although months or years had passed since we were really close, you opened your arms to me when I came back to LA, broken and discouraged. The same friendships I had let lapse at times, the ones I grew up with in high school and childhood ballet classes, those friendships were stronger than ever when I came back home.

Heartbroken last summer, breakfast with Amelia at Dupar's soothed my soul. When my anxiety over finding a job and doing everything I ever wanted took over it was Amelia who constantly reminded me "it doesn't mean it won't happen, it's just not happening right now."

When I've been anxious, sad, crying, these lady friends never paused before saying "you can talk to me whenever you need to," or "what's going on?"

These ladies were also there to open me up, to expose me to downtown LA bars and dancing and getting drunk and hangover breakfasts and all the things the more straight-laced Carolyn wouldn't try without provocation.

They've had advice and more importantly, a willing ear to hear everything I have to say. When I'm lost, they give me perspective and hope. They remind me that fear is merely a feeling, not a reality. They boost my confidence and make me feel at home. They are my heart and my soul and my life partners.

As Samantha said in Sex and the City 2, "A long time ago we all agreed we'd be each other's soul mates."

I've felt that way for a long time, but I haven't said it out loud. I am now.

I can't thank all of you enough for the roles you play in my life and the people you are. I feel truly blessed to know all of you. Thank you for being a part of my life. And I know you are all my soul mates.